Photography Film Video
The Inner Project
From a very young age, I realized that I was different from the majority of kids, I wasn’t sure how exactly, and what was so wrong with me, but the children around me made clear that I would know that I don’t belong around them. The first feeling of not understanding social interactions. social behavior, gossip, and manipulative games happening behind my back.
Having high sensory sensitivities that were affecting my behavior and state of mind, very sudden meltdowns, and burnouts were not even acknowledged as signs of exhaustion but taken as a part of my daily life.
Only at the age of 34, I was diagnosed with high-functioning autism after two or three years of researching and realizing that it made complete sense that I was on the spectrum.
This project is an experiment to show a broad audience how it feels to be in the body and mind of a person on the spectrum.
“How does it feel to be in the body of an alien that was born on this planet but isn’t equipped with the right resources to understand how everything works, who is trying to figure things out and fit in. The invisible language that everyone communicates with is impossible to learn so you exhaust yourself with trying to learn it, trying not to stand out, trying to understand but every time you try you exhaust yourself to the point of your body starting malfunctioning as an overloaded computer that can’t process any more information”.