Portraiture has always been a fundamental way of looking at ourselves and our relationship to others. The question arises what a self-portrait is, when is doesn’t look like you. A woman painting herself is contrasted by creating something quite androgynous and ungendered, challenging our normative reading of portraiture and refusing to use it how it is accustomed to being seen.
How we perceive the world around us, depends on our own experiences. We form our own connotations to things. Shortcuts of signs make up our own personal visual language. This body of work relates to my own perception of reality. Capturing the seen world directly, the fluctuating immediacy of the living moment.
The imprint of bodily action is present in the work, the residue left from movement. The drawings and paintings interact and capture a sense of movement. Dualisms appear in the work between the pleasure in action and aggression that is played out in moments of anxiety, the absorption in work and the feeling of being watched. A performance in surveillance. This kind of self-awareness leads to an overload in sensory perception, the heightened awareness of temperature, the feeling of blood heating in your cheeks, of overheating and not being able to breathe. Feeling constricted.